A Lot On My Mind

This is an example of the people who show up when I paint. Usually they are a reflection of what’s happening with me but I never know that until the painting is done. I guess I’ve got a lot going on LOL!

I know I have a terrible “Monkey Mind” and that I find it really hard to settle down. During this stage of my life sometimes I stay up all night without the ability to turn it off. Years ago when my children were young I took a couple of courses with a wonderful lady to learn how to meditate. I learned all about our chakras and how to move energy from our lower chakras upward to our higher chakras, it was beautiful. I don’t know why but I’ve never been able to remember to or to make it a priority to take the time to meditate. Sometimes I think I’m afraid of what will come up during these meditations. I have had some intense ones over the years where I’ve seen things and heard people from The other side. I’m worried if I took up the habit I might have all kinds of people joining me!

All kidding aside I do really think it’s time that I made it a part of my daily ritual. The problem is I don’t really have a daily ritual. Other than waking up and immediately popping the kettle on for a cup of tea and then taking my little Shih Tzu out for a walk that’s about the extent of it. After that it’s anyone’s guess as to what I will get up to.

Discipline! That’s what I need. But I’ve always been one to buck the rules. Gosh, I am a handful.

It would be so nice to stick with a plan. Get up, god forbid, stretch or exercise, meditate, then walk the dog, then paint all day. That’s the ideal day I want to shoot for but so far it ain’t happening.

Argh! I’ve got a lot on my mind!

A Lot On My Mind

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